the test, the end...maybe
If you've followed my facebook posts, blog posts, or kept up with me at all the past months you know I've had my sights set on taking the LSAT on 5 December. Months and months of prep tests, five prep books later, 1 LSAT class, tons of breathing excercises, and even more prayers...and hello, LSAT.
Friday, admittedly, I was a bit flustered and stressed as I felt that I had plateaued a couple of weeks ago in my testing and the more logic games and reasoning arguments that I attempted, the more frustrated I became. So after a whole day of pent up anxiety, I woke up Saturday with a strange feeling...complete peace. I guess it didn't help much that I had a head cold and it was our first snow of the season in Maryland but my head was stable, heart was beating at a normal rate, and I felt surprisingly calm...determinded, but calm. I woke up Saturday with this extreme sense of purpose. I felt that I HAD to take the exam, had to conquer it, had to push through with as much tenacity as I could muster. It was truly an incredible feeling and very unexpected, but I know it was a testament to the Holy Spirit's grace and power at work.
When I arrived on Saturday, people were in a frenzy at the test site. Kids were getting kicked out for cell phone use and wrong ID's while some were just having breakdowns from all of the emotional pressure. Meanwhile, I was sitting in the classroom with a huge sense of peace enveloping me just thinking, "I can't wait to get started, I am so ready to take this and conquer it."
Five hours later, I walked out of the building and fought the snow all the way back to my car, got in, closed the door, and cried. There was months and months of stress, pressure, frustration, challenge, pain, and striving all in the matter of a few hours. It was draining but entirely worth it. Nothing in life ever comes easy, and God has not called me to a simple, easy task.
I am convinced now more than ever that His plans and purpose are sure. That God is faithful and plants within each of us a divine sense of calling, if we open the ears of our spirit to listen. His love is great. He is mighty to save. He is ever-faithful. Our responsibility, then, is to trust, to obey, and to walk in His will. To glorify Him in our every action, whether difficult or simple, it's not our decision--He simple calls us, He never promises that it will be easy.
Friday, admittedly, I was a bit flustered and stressed as I felt that I had plateaued a couple of weeks ago in my testing and the more logic games and reasoning arguments that I attempted, the more frustrated I became. So after a whole day of pent up anxiety, I woke up Saturday with a strange feeling...complete peace. I guess it didn't help much that I had a head cold and it was our first snow of the season in Maryland but my head was stable, heart was beating at a normal rate, and I felt surprisingly calm...determinded, but calm. I woke up Saturday with this extreme sense of purpose. I felt that I HAD to take the exam, had to conquer it, had to push through with as much tenacity as I could muster. It was truly an incredible feeling and very unexpected, but I know it was a testament to the Holy Spirit's grace and power at work.
When I arrived on Saturday, people were in a frenzy at the test site. Kids were getting kicked out for cell phone use and wrong ID's while some were just having breakdowns from all of the emotional pressure. Meanwhile, I was sitting in the classroom with a huge sense of peace enveloping me just thinking, "I can't wait to get started, I am so ready to take this and conquer it."
Five hours later, I walked out of the building and fought the snow all the way back to my car, got in, closed the door, and cried. There was months and months of stress, pressure, frustration, challenge, pain, and striving all in the matter of a few hours. It was draining but entirely worth it. Nothing in life ever comes easy, and God has not called me to a simple, easy task.
I am convinced now more than ever that His plans and purpose are sure. That God is faithful and plants within each of us a divine sense of calling, if we open the ears of our spirit to listen. His love is great. He is mighty to save. He is ever-faithful. Our responsibility, then, is to trust, to obey, and to walk in His will. To glorify Him in our every action, whether difficult or simple, it's not our decision--He simple calls us, He never promises that it will be easy.
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